Thursday, September 6, 2007

To your Health

I went in for my 6 week post partum check up. I've got 15 pounds left until I return to my pre-pregnancy weight and everything from the delivery is on the up and up. Then during my breast exam I pointed out the small "lumps" I'd noticed. My OB spent a long time feeling around and finally decided that after a couple of months, if they remain as they are (he is hopeful they are a bi-product of my nursing) he wants to perform a biopsy.

Add this to the list of on going health issues I have and it's enough to make anyone depressed. I was waiting to get the clear from my OB to return to my Neuro (treat recurring migraines/cluster headaches) and family doctor (anemia, hyperthyroid, heart palps, fatigue). Now I can add the potential worry of tumors in my breast. (my mother has a history, thus far she has had 8 tumors removed from her breasts, thank god all were benign)

It's been difficult at best the last few days. The lumps are worrisome but the heart palpitations have returned with a vengeance and are very frightening. As a long time anxiety attack sufferer, I'd always assumed they were a figment of my imagination. Then during Annabel's delivery I would get them and watched in horror as my heart rate dramatically increased on the monitor. I now know it's not my imagination and it terrifies me.

I try to keep a positive outlook that I can finally begin treatment for all these problems and get back on track. This is what I've been waiting for. Yet I'm scared now that the time has come that I'm only going to get bad news that things are worse than I assumed.

Has anyone ever dealt with hyperthyroidism? I've been told it can be a cause of almost every symptom I'm experiencing. From the fatigue (to the point that I can't even feel my heart beating, which really freaks me out) to the opposite, my heart pounding like it's going to explode. I'm not even going to go into how terrible my migraines are. I'll only say they are only slightly better than before I gave birth and during that time I was taking Demerol and Zofran on a frequent basis.

I'm hopeful I will begin some sort of treatment next week. Until then I'll be trying to convince myself that the pounding of my heart isn't indicative of something very seriously wrong.


Kristin said...

Oy. I hear you on the lump/anxiety stuff. I hope everything is declared A-OK for you & soon.

Southern Sugar said...

I just found your blog this evening so I don't know you at all. I know I like your blog. But I urge you to have the lumps checked ou immediately. I don't want to scare you.Its just that the very same thing happened to a dear friend of mine's sister. She listened to her long time obgyn and waited because he said he thought it was from her nursing but that even if it were his own daughter he wouldn't do a biopsy. Well, a couple of months later she still wasn't feeling well. They discovered cancer in her liver and upon further tests found that is started in her breast. It is an estrogen fed cancer in her case and her hormones and the pregnancy may have had something to do with its developement. I really don't think you have anything to worry about. But what can it hurt to pursue it immediately. You can check out my friend's blog at She started complaining of terrible indigestion, that was her first sign of something being wrong and they wouldn't listen to her. I hope you get a clean bill of health. Please let anything I've said make you alarmed. I don't mean it to scare you.

Southern Sugar said...

I meant to say please don't let anything I've said alarm you. sorry.

Jaime said...

Thank you both for your posts! Southern Sugar, I will definately check out her blog as well as call my Dr.

I have an appointment with my family Dr and Neurologist and planned on asking them as well about the lumps. I've suffered from Fibrocystic Breast Disease for the last several years and was hoping it was that. Unfortunately with my health now all things health related seem much worse.

Thank you again!! and I'll blog what I find out ;) Thanks for dropping by!!