Friday, March 27, 2009

I'm not depressed!

I took a trip to see my family doctor. She's still new to me but so far I like her. She gets the "girl" thing better than my male physician did previously. I was certain she would understand my need for a medication to get me through this short period of stress in my life. Considering everything that has transpired.

I told her everything - minus my nice imparting words to my sister - and she listened thoughtfully. I explained I didn't want a long term medication, just something to ease the way for the next few weeks. I've been unable to sleep, I'm edgy and nervous, and it's slowly taking a toll.

She tells me she'll, "put something together that will work for me", and then leaves the room. When she returns she hands me a sample of Lexapro and a prescription for it as well.

Let me just say I think Lexapro is an awesome antidepressant. I used it for several months after Annabel's birth. It got me through a really difficult time and I praise it's gloom eclipsing glory.


I am not depressed.

And this isn't the first time I've had someone try to pawn off a medication like this for anxiety. (When I was busting my balls, working a two jobs and attending college full-time, my 'then' doctor tried to do the exact same thing.)

I suppose she worries depression might follow and it's simply smart thinking on her behalf. But what in the hell am I supposed to do in the meantime while I'm still losing sleep and I have an occasional but debilitating panic attack?

For the first time in my life, I demanded something for my nerves. I've never, EVER, told a Doctor to prescribe me something before. But I knew that if my family contacted me, I would need something more than Lexapro to smooth the way. She didn't like it but complied with my request and gave a prescription for Xanax.

For those of you that read the blog, especially if you deal with anxiety like this, do you have to ask for something to keep you from losing your shit during stressful periods? Was I wrong to tell her the Lexapro is well and good but I just don't need it?


Lawfrog said...

No you were not at all wrong! In fact, you were very right to have done this. You need to trust your doctor, but you have to trust yourself more. You know you're body and you know what you need. It's important to ask for it even if your doctor disagrees. Kudos to you!

Kristin said...

Looking back after Carter was born, Bill was caught lying, his family went insane (more than usual) and I was on Lexapro, I should have done the same as you. I didn't need anything long term, but probably could have benefited from something short term with less side effects and no weaning-off process.

I'll keep this in mind during the next in-law drama (because there will be one, I'm sure). I think it was smart of you.

Anonymous said...

Hi! I am new to your blog, but I wanted to talk to you about this post....maybe you could email me?

I just have a few questions for you....

By the way, congrats for standing up for yourself and telling her what you want/need.

Katherine said...

Lexapro is actually good for anxiety, as well as depression. She should have explained that to you. Xanax is good for short term (about 2 weeks max), which you would need in combo with the lexapro, since it takes a few weeks to start working.

I started it when i was having panic attacks and unable to sleep. I also was depressed. My doctor spoke to me at length about what she was giving me and why (she gave me both the lexapro and the xanax), how to take them, what changes I would notice, etc.

You can check out, that was the website I was given to reference as a pharmaceutical student, but it also has patient info.

Hopefully, the xanax will take care of your short term needs. But if not, do some research, and at least think about the lexapro.

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Spook, RN said...

Wanted to email ya something... only to realize you don't have an email addy listed.

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