Friday, June 15, 2007

My Absence

It's been so long since I've blogged. It's not because I haven't wanted to blog or that I've had nothing to say, I wish that were the opposite actually.

I don't want to make this particular post too long but alot has happened in my life and I have a huge gambit of emotions. I'm angry, anxious, and above all sick and tired (and I mean that literally).

After months of begging my OB to do something about this horrible fatigue and migraines, I finally broke down and took matters into my own hands and went to a Neurologist. Before I get to that I need to mention that I went in a month ago for my glucose tolerance came back abnormal and I do have gestational diabetes. I sought help from a Neuro after finding out about the diabetes and being informed by my OB that the constant headaches (that last for days and days) were not caused by it and I got his usual "why don't we just wait and see" response.

I was so pissed after my stress test 2 weeks ago I contacted a Neuro and got an appointment. I went in and saw her on Tuesday and had some minor tests done in the office and some blood work done. The headaches she thinks are from two muscles in my neck being inflamed and aggrivated, I start physical therapy for this next week. She believes on top of the headaches I also get migraines, hence them never truly going away. She wrote me a prescription for Demerol and Zofran. I was nervous about taking the medication but left with some hope that finally I would have some answers about my health. Little did I know that the floodgates were about to open....

It appears my OB hasn't been doing his job or having the lab run important screens on me. Aside from extreme anemia, I also have a severe vitamin B12 deficency (which goes hand and hand with the anemia). I have to start a regimen of daily shots for this immediately. To top that I found out I have hyperthyroidism.

Basically, my body is producing too little thyroid hormones and it's causing my thyroid to overwork itself to compensate (sounds weird I know) and it's causing all of this fatigue, hair loss, anxiety, insomnia, depression, you name it. All of it can be directly linked back to my thyroid. Needless to say I'm pissed beyond belief that my OB made me think that all these symptoms were A. All in my head or B. Caused by the fact that I'm a SAHM with 3 kids. He totally ignored my repeated pleas for action and blew me off, I probably wouldn't have found any of this out until after I had the baby and the sickness still hung around.

The next few weeks are going to be tough. I'm trying to regulate my sugar so I don't need insulin and I'm taking tons of vitamins and iron for the anemia. Depending on the next batch of tests I'll be started on a hormone for the thyroid and will have to take that from there. Most of this will have to be put on hold until the baby is born.

It's sad when you lose faith in your doctor. I've been seeing the same OB's for 10 years now and after this baby is born I will have to find another. It saddens me but I refuse to put myself in this situation with him again. Were it not for the fact that I'm so far along now and only have 7 weeks left I'd be shopping around for another OB to deliever this baby.

So that's it in a nutshell. I hope to start blogging on a normal basis soon since I'd truly hoped to have this as a reflection of my pregnancy and the baby.

All good vibes are appreciated.